In the moment.

Tonight was one of those nights you read about on someone's blog but never think you will experience.

Todds dad called a family meeting. His mother (who has been fighting cancer for years and who had a stroke in March) was recently diagnosed with more tumors...bigger tumors..in places they had already radiated. She is weak, she is tired and now the doctors arent sure what the next plan is.

To sit with Todd, his parents, his aunts and granmother and to hear the news that all this fighting we\she has been doing all these years could soon be done is not only heart wrenching it is one of those moments when you absorb the emotions of your family and you all ache together.

My life has been crazy lately with work,the girls,my obligations to organizations..etc. I have been keeping on keeping on and then tonight answering that email is not top on my priority list.

In the moment you hear the news that your loved ones life span is now awaiting a miracle you stop to grasp how BIG God is.

As Believers we are taught to celebrate life and to know that God is always in control. I have seen Him work miracles in Todds mom before. When she was at a low before he pulled her out and made her cancer free. She even had a study written on her. God bought her back to us from a serious stoke. He allowed that stroke to happen and because it did, the doctors found the brain tumors.

God has an amazing plan and weather that plan is 6 more months with Todds mom or 16 more years. We are going to live in the moment.

Sometimes as humans we want to beg,plead and cry out WHY,God?!?! Why her?? Why to us? But as Christians we already know the Why. Because the Lord is in control, because He knows what is best and sometimes that best is hard to understand and sometimes it hurts, real bad. But God is good in all circumstances and when we Believe, one day we will all know the big plan.

Our little blog has always been my personal prayer journal with some DIY, reno and kiddie stories mixed in. but tonight I lift up this request.

Please God, help us live in the moment. Please let these details last in our memory. Please give us the strength to give Kathy strength. Please be with the family as we take on each day. Please help us be a light.Give me the right words to say when the girls ask questions. Guide their hearts. Be with Todd and Rusty as the two men of Kathys life take on the task of loving daily and coping with the unknown. God, you are an amazing creator and ultimate healer. May your will be done Lord. We praise You in this storm.

Psalm 37:5